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[sponsorigami]

[ He bites Bunnys not wolves. ]

Also, please know that my opinion on the Shinsengumi hasn't changed after this. If anything, I think I'm more in awe of both of you.

[demarcates]

[ supports this biting. ]

And why is that?

[sponsorigami]

[ (.///.) ]

You live with this everyday, and yet you haven't let it stop you. I locked myself in my room the whole week, but you believe in yourself enough to trust yourself around other people.

[demarcates]

[ :|b ]

It isn't like that. I made a choice to become that monster, you didn't. Saitou, as well. I can't speak for him, but I can say it's not about trust or confidence, it's about knowing you have to live with the consequences of your actions. I can't let my decisions shut me down and prevent me from continuing to do what I'm living for. Don't think because you were forced to endure something you've never had to and couldn't do it the same way as the two of us have means that we have something you don't.

Besides, my own way of handling it very may well have made it worse for you to experience. I've only dealt with the bloodlust once so far—if you received even half of the withdrawal from that course of action, you should be proud a lock kept you away from others.

[sponsorigami]

[ That's an angle Ivan hadn't considered. Could the strength of the bloodlust Ivan felt really depend on Hijikata's actions? With COMPASS, nearly anything is possible.

He still thinks highly of them for making the choice despite knowing hwo their lives would change. ]

... You know more about this than me. If that's what you think, then I don't see how I can really argue against it.

[demarcates]

[ yeah of all the people hijikata probably wasn't the first choice to inherit that stuff from. then again he resists this shit like no one's business.

that's exactly what hijikata thinks, or maybe not. he doesn't know, it wasn't what he thought so much as he doesn't want ivan to think weaknesses or issues are necessarily a reflection on himself. own up to what your failures are, yes, but no sense adding to the mix if they're not even things you can control and fix. point is that there's nothing more to say on the matter with a reply like that, so...]

Kondou-san has been pretty worried about you, so I imagine you'll be seeing a lot of him this week. Take care of him as well as yourself, he's got a bad habit of overdoing it at times like these.

[sponsorigami]

When I see him, I'll try to make sure he takes a moment to rest. Maybe I could try to make him eat or drink something...

[ He can't exactly go up to the leader of the Shinsengumi and tell him to take a break, but if he gives an invitation to share a meal with, then perhaps that'll help for a few minutes. ]

[demarcates]

thank you.

[ he is sure Ivan would do such things regardless but it still means a lot to him to hear it anyway and know other people will actively watch out for Kondou overdoing it. ]

[sponsorigami]

Does he have any favorites or things he doesn't like?

[ Because favorite foods will be easier to tempt with than with things he hates ]

[demarcates]

Manju.

...But, he likes quite a variety of other things, too, especially if you'll sit down and share the meal with him.

[sponsorigami]

Manju will be hard in this place, but the later is easily doable.

What about you?

[ Maybe Kondou and Hijikata can share a meal together and both be happy. ]

[demarcates]

[ gaah why do cute. Cute meet really dense. ]

me?

[sponsorigami]

What do you like to eat? Or avoid eating?

[ He can't help being cute. ]

erp i thought i replied to this

[demarcates]

[ sigh too many cuties to handle it's like hello kitty everywhere. ]

i'm not really picky except with tea.

[ and he's pretty sure getting one of his favorite foods would be impossible here so he's not going to even bother sob. ]